Wednesday, 14 December 2016

My Personality

ENTREPRENEUR PERSONALITY (ESTP, -A/-T)

Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all.


Helen Keller
Entrepreneurs always have an impact on their immediate surroundings – the best way to spot them at a party is to look for the whirling eddy of people flitting about them as they move from group to group. Laughing and entertaining with a blunt and earthy humor, Entrepreneur personalities love to be the center of attention. If an audience member is asked to come on stage, Entrepreneurs volunteer – or volunteer a shy friend.
Theory, abstract concepts and plodding discussions about global issues and their implications don’t keep Entrepreneurs interested for long. Entrepreneurs keep their conversation energetic, with a good dose of intelligence, but they like to talk about what is – or better yet, to just go out and do it. Entrepreneurs leap before they look, fixing their mistakes as they go, rather than sitting idle, preparing contingencies and escape clauses.
Entrepreneur (ESTP) personality

Never Confuse Movement With Action

Entrepreneurs are the likeliest personality type to make a lifestyle of risky behavior. They live in the moment and dive into the action – they are the eye of the storm. People with the Entrepreneur personality type enjoy drama, passion, and pleasure, not for emotional thrills, but because it’s so stimulating to their logical minds. They are forced to make critical decisions based on factual, immediate reality in a process of rapid-fire rational stimulus response.
This makes school and other highly organized environments a challenge for Entrepreneurs. It certainly isn’t because they aren’t smart, and they can do well, but the regimented, lecturing approach of formal education is just so far from the hands-on learning that Entrepreneurs enjoy. It takes a great deal of maturity to see this process as a necessary means to an end, something that creates more exciting opportunities.
Also challenging is that to Entrepreneurs, it makes more sense to use their own moral compass than someone else’s. Rules were made to be broken. This is a sentiment few high school instructors or corporate supervisors are likely to share, and can earn Entrepreneur personalities a certain reputation. But if they minimize the trouble-making, harness their energy, and focus through the boring stuff, Entrepreneurs are a force to be reckoned with.

Most People Don’t Listen Well Enough

With perhaps the most perceptive, unfiltered view of any type, Entrepreneurs have a unique skill in noticing small changes. Whether a shift in facial expression, a new clothing style, or a broken habit, people with this personality type pick up on hidden thoughts and motives where most types would be lucky to pick up anything specific at all. Entrepreneurs use these observations immediately, calling out the change and asking questions, often with little regard for sensitivity. Entrepreneurs should remember that not everyone wants their secrets and decisions broadcast.
Sometimes Entrepreneurs’ instantaneous observation and action is just what’s required, as in some corporate environments, and especially in emergencies.
If Entrepreneurs aren’t careful though, they may get too caught in the moment, take things too far, and run roughshod over more sensitive people, or forget to take care of their own health and safety. Making up only four percent of the population, there are just enough Entrepreneurs out there to keep things spicy and competitive, and not so many as to cause a systemic risk.
Entrepreneurs are full of passion and energy, complemented by a rational, if sometimes distracted, mind. Inspiring, convincing and colorful, they are natural group leaders, pulling everyone along the path less traveled, bringing life and excitement everywhere they go. Putting these qualities to a constructive and rewarding end is Entrepreneurs’ true challenge.


ENTREPRENEUR STRENGTHS AND WEAKNESSES

Entrepreneur Strengths

Entrepreneur (ESTP) strengths
  • Bold – People with the Entrepreneur personality type are full of life and energy. There is no greater joy for Entrepreneurs than pushing boundaries and discovering and using new things and ideas.
  • Rational and Practical – Entrepreneurs love knowledge and philosophy, but not for their own sake. What’s fun for Entrepreneur personalities is finding ideas that are actionable and drilling into the details so they can put them to use. If a discussion is completely arbitrary, there are better uses for Entrepreneurs’ time.
  • Original – Combining their boldness and practicality, Entrepreneurs love to experiment with new ideas and solutions. They put things together in ways no one else would think to.
  • Perceptive – This originality is helped by Entrepreneurs’ ability to notice when things change – and when they need to change! Small shifts in habits and appearances stick out to Entrepreneurs, and they use these observations to help create connections with others.
  • Direct – This perceptive skill isn’t used for mind games – Entrepreneurs prefer to communicate clearly, with direct and factual questions and answers. Things are what they are.
  • Sociable – All these qualities pull together to make a natural group leader in Entrepreneurs. This isn’t something that they actively seek – people with this personality type just have a knack for making excellent use of social interactions and networking opportunities.

Entrepreneur Weaknesses

Entrepreneur (ESTP) weaknesses
  • Insensitive – Feelings and emotions come second to facts and “reality” for Entrepreneurs. Emotionally charged situations are awkward, uncomfortable affairs, and Entrepreneurs’ blunt honesty doesn’t help here. These personalities often have a lot of trouble acknowledging and expressing their own feelings as well.
  • Impatient – Entrepreneurs move at their own pace to keep themselves excited. Slowing down because someone else “doesn’t get it” or having to stay focused on a single detail for too long is extremely challenging for Entrepreneurs.
  • Risk-prone – This impatience can lead Entrepreneurs to push into uncharted territory without thinking of the long-term consequences. Entrepreneur personalities sometimes intentionally combat boredom with extra risk.
  • Unstructured – Entrepreneurs see an opportunity – to fix a problem, to advance, to have fun – and seize the moment, often ignoring rules and social expectations in the process. This may get things done, but it can create unexpected social fallout.
  • May Miss the Bigger Picture – Living in the moment can cause Entrepreneurs to miss the forest for the trees. People with this personality type love to solve problems here and now, perhaps too much. All parts of a project can be perfect, but the project will still fail if those parts do not fit together.
  • Defiant – Entrepreneurs won’t be boxed in. Repetition, hardline rules, sitting quietly while they are lectured at – this isn’t how Entrepreneurs live their lives. They are action-oriented and hands-on. Environments like school and much entry-level work can be so tedious that they’re intolerable, requiring extraordinary effort from Entrepreneurs to stay focused long enough to get to freer positions.

ENTREPRENEUR RELATIONSHIPS

When it comes to romantic relationships, people with the Entrepreneur personality type can hardly be said to be pining away for their wedding day. Life is fun and full of surprises (something Entrepreneurs have particular skill in delivering), and they enjoy it all in the here and now. Entrepreneurs may not spend a lot of time planning for “someday”, but their enthusiasm and unpredictability make them thrilling dating partners.
Entrepreneurs’ relationships are far from boring. Their improvisational style creates a seemingly never-ending list of activities and hobbies to be involved in, and Entrepreneurs fully encourage their partners to partake.
Entrepreneurs love new ideas and the occasional philosophical discussion – but they need to be topics that can explored through action together, not just idle talk. There’s musing about the causes and effects of epidemic obesity, and there’s training for a marathon together to promote healthy living.
Entrepreneur (ESTP) romantic relationships

As Good as Spring Itself

Sexually, Entrepreneurs have no real reservations. It’s fun, it’s physically enjoyable, new ideas are always welcome, and Entrepreneur personalities’ strong perception keeps them well-tuned to their partners’ needs. However, Entrepreneurs’ separation of the physical act from the more emotional and spiritual connections that many other types look for in intimacy can be a serious source of tension if everybody isn’t on the same page. Some types need sex to be a genuine expression of love – Entrepreneurs just aren’t one of them.
As time passes, it can be challenging for Entrepreneurs to move their relationships to deeper, more emotionally intimate levels. Easily bored, people with the Entrepreneur personality type seek constant excitement – sometimes even intentionally exposing themselves to risk if they feel stuck. If their partners aren’t able to keep up, Entrepreneurs may just end up looking for someone new. It’s not that Entrepreneur personalities are unfaithful. Rather, they may think to themselves “This isn’t working, so why should I pretend it is?” Entrepreneurs are rational, and can exercise self-control if they choose, but being as charming and popular as they are, it can sometimes be a little too easy to move on.

Travel Only With Those You Love

As with any relationship, it takes work and patience. Not every day can be a thrill a minute. But Entrepreneurs are adaptable, curious individuals, which certainly helps to keep the flame burning. Maintaining healthy relationships is the ultimate chance for Entrepreneurs to exercise their talents in perceiving every change in their partners’ mood and behavior, while also using their problem-solving abilities to address their needs. Entrepreneurs can also strengthen more neglected traits, like emotional sensitivity and long-term planning.

ENTREPRENEUR FRIENDS

People with the Entrepreneur personality type are definitely the life of the party. With an enviable imagination and invigorating sense of spontaneity, Entrepreneurs are never boring. They love exploring interesting ideas, both in discussion and by going out and seeing for themselves, which means that Entrepreneurs always seem to have some fun activity hidden up their sleeves. At the same time, Entrepreneur personalities are easy-going, tolerant, and charming, making them naturally quite popular.

When I Have an Idea, I Turn Down the Flame...

Hands-on, physical activities like team sports are Entrepreneurs’ idea of fun, and these environments give them plenty of chances to make new friends. There is little difficulty for Entrepreneurs here – they seem to get along with just about everyone, and make new friends wherever they go. Entrepreneurs live in the moment, and as a naturally confident personality type (especially if they are Assertive as well), they don’t worry much about what others think of them. This attracts friends who share their attitude and zest for life.
Entrepreneur (ESTP) friends
While not opposed to long philosophical discussions, and often enjoying the intellectual exercise, Entrepreneurs are unlikely to develop friendships based solely around one-on-one discussions about European economic challenges and the role of religion in politics. Straightforward to the point of being blunt, Entrepreneurs call it like they see it, and an honest opinion in debate is a sure thing. But at their hearts, Entrepreneurs are people of action, preferring to do what can be done than to talk about what might someday be.

...Eventually It Builds Up and Explodes – That’s My Idea

Sitting idle, especially in boredom, is the bane of Entrepreneurs’ existence.
Exploration, excitement, adrenaline and risk – Entrepreneurs’ friends should be prepared for all of these things. Often enough they’re happy to perform for the crowd, but they also tend to encourage their friends to join in. Most personality types might take “thanks but no thanks” personally, but Entrepreneurs are comfortable with who they are, and are more likely to just shrug their shoulders and move on with those friends who are game for adventure.

ENTREPRENEUR PARENTS

In a lot of ways, Entrepreneurs are what many children would consider the perfect parent. Fun-loving and playful, flexible and understanding, people with the Entrepreneur personality type genuinely enjoy spending time with their children, and know how to make sure everyone is having a good time. Entrepreneurs have a natural curiosity and spontaneity that is perfectly matched to the wonder and insatiable desire to learn that young children have.
Entrepreneur (ESTP) parents

Looking at Everything as if for the First Time

Entrepreneurs love hands-on activities, and their children aren’t left wanting for someone to play catch with, or to help them build a model for school. Sports, hiking, and other practical, hands-on hobbies are all welcomed and encouraged. At the same time, given their aversion to rules and schedules themselves, Entrepreneurs aren’t likely to forcibly enter their children into all manner of clubs and teams. If their kids want to play softball, great – if not, well, they’ll just find something else to do.
Maybe the greatest thing about Entrepreneur parents is that they see their children as equal members of the family.
Entrepreneurs give their children freedom, encourage them to use their own judgment (especially with the minor stuff), and to follow their hearts – to heck with what other people think. Entrepreneur personalities keep a close enough eye on their kids, using that knack for picking up on even the slightest changes in others’ moods and habits, that they can step in with extra guidance when things start to go wrong.
Entrepreneurs do have one significant parental challenge though: emotional bonding. Feelings tend to be seen by Entrepreneurs as a bit of an irrational distraction, rather than a tool for expression and connection. If their children happen to be more sensitive, this can be a source of tension between Entrepreneurs and their children. Frank honesty isn’t always the best prescription.

We Are All Apprentices in a Craft Where No One Is Master

Still, Entrepreneurs can often rely on a more sensitive partner to help them out in this regard, and the healthy bonds they form through their shared activities can help to bridge the gap. Entrepreneurs have the added benefit of direct and understanding relationships – their children won’t feel so much like they have to hide their mistakes and challenges, the holy grail of parent-child communication.

ENTREPRENEUR CAREERS

When it comes to Entrepreneurs’ career options, “action” is the word of the day. People with the Entrepreneur personality type think on their feet and are great at making quick decisions in the heat of the moment. At the same time, they’re affable people who always seem to make friends and connections wherever they go. Popularity and solid networking can be huge assets in the working world, and Entrepreneurs nail it.
Entrepreneur (ESTP) careers
This social intelligence, combined with Entrepreneurs’ natural boldness and improvisational skill, makes sales, business negotiations, marketing, even acting – any tense, competitive environment – a great fit. Entrepreneur personalities trust themselves to make the right call. Risks, big and small, are a part of life, and Entrepreneurs don’t sit around waiting for some boss at the top to tell them what to do. This can get Entrepreneurs into trouble, but often enough it’s exactly what’s needed, and can boost them up the career ladder just as well.
It’s hard to imagine Entrepreneurs choosing secure but boring jobs over less stable but more exciting careers.
Restrictions, rules, highly structured environments – these are great ways to drive Entrepreneurs crazy. People with this personality type live life on their own terms, and this makes them brilliant business people and freelancers. These roles also allow them to delegate the more tedious aspects of work, the accounting, meticulous research and so forth, to those better suited.
Entrepreneurs are curious, energetic people with a taste for action. There are those who analyze and manage the logistics of public safety resource distribution, and there are those who drive the ambulances, patrol the streets, and save lives with their own two hands – Entrepreneur personalities are the latter. They are highly observant yet impatient, enabling them to take in the whole of a situation at a glance, and act. Any emergency response role is great for Entrepreneurs, whether it be as paramedics, police officers, or soldiers.

There’s Nothing to It – Just Sit Down and Bleed Your Passion

This quality of living in the moment and craving immediate results for their efforts translates well into another field: sports. The thrill of competition, of pushing themselves to the physical limit to rack up just one more point for the win can have no comparison for Entrepreneurs. Whether they are on the field as athletes themselves, coaching from the sidelines or commentating from high above, people with the Entrepreneur personality type revel in well-honed team effort and a well-executed plan, and any of these positions makes a fine line of work for them.

ENTREPRENEURS IN THE WORKPLACE

In just about any environment, the workplace included, it’s pretty easy to spot Entrepreneurs. Boisterous and spontaneous, fun-loving and maybe a little crass, people with the Entrepreneur personality type love tackling problems as they arise and telling great stories about their solutions afterwards. Naturally, some positions work better with these qualities than others, but Entrepreneurs are adaptable individuals, and can find a way to make just about any situation a little more interesting.
Entrepreneur (ESTP) workplace habits

Entrepreneur Subordinates

Entrepreneurs’ most challenging position is the one that most people have to start out in: as subordinates. While perfectly capable of exercising restraint on their own terms, Entrepreneur personalities hate having others’ rules and regulations foisted upon them. Entrepreneurs are known for their experimentation, improvisation and quick thinking – if they’re not allowed to use these qualities and have to check in with a supervisor for every little thing, they’ll be bored and frustrated.
Entrepreneurs know well that risk equals reward, and they’ll gladly skirt more mundane tasks in favor of something a little more exciting, in the hope that it catches someone’s attention. A plaque and a bonus go a long way for people with this personality type. Getting ahead by the tenets of staid reliability, quiet helpfulness, or mere seniority isn’t Entrepreneurs’ way – they move forward by sheer force of personality in a well-handled crisis.

Entrepreneur Colleagues

As colleagues, Entrepreneurs have a work hard, play hard mentality – as long as everyone else is pulling their weight, they’ll gladly pull their own, and have a great time doing it. Charming and popular individuals that they are, networking comes naturally to Entrepreneurs. These qualities make it easy for Entrepreneur personalities to get along with just about anyone.
At the same time, if Entrepreneurs see a colleague as incompetent, or worse, lazy, they let them know in no uncertain terms. Emotional sensitivity is not their strong suit. Entrepreneurs are very observant and well-tuned to changes in their colleagues’ habits and moods – unless they themselves are the cause of distress.

Entrepreneur Managers

Management positions are where Entrepreneurs are usually most comfortable, as they often give the most flexibility. Rules and traditions are a bother for people with the Entrepreneur personality type – they’d rather try a bunch of new ideas with a chance of getting things done faster or better than to pay attention to “the way things have always been done” or subordinates’ comfort with experimentation. Entrepreneurs are practical, with a focus on what does, or could, work best.
This can make for a chaotic environment, but Entrepreneurs’ inspiring cult of personality makes them well-suited to handling such a thing. Entrepreneurs enjoy living in the moment. Rather than some broad, intangible future accomplishment like “making customers happy”, Entrepreneur personalities set small, clear, measurable, and attainable goals that keep things on track day-to-day, and hearty congratulations can always be relied on for a job well done. Entrepreneurs keep their eyes on the finish line, but they get there step by step.

ENTREPRENEUR PERSONALITY – CONCLUSION

Few personality types are as charming and attractive as Entrepreneurs. Known for their ability to improvise and focus completely on the present, Entrepreneurs are great at finding exciting new things to explore and experience. Entrepreneurs’ creativity and down-to-earth attitude are invaluable in many areas, including their own personal growth.
Entrepreneur (ESTP) personality
Yet Entrepreneurs can be easily tripped up in situations where their focus on practical matters is more of a liability than an asset. Whether it is finding (or keeping) a partner, reaching dazzling heights on the career ladder, or learning to plan ahead, Entrepreneurs need to put in a conscious effort to develop their weaker traits and additional skills.
What you have read so far is just an introduction into the complex concept that is the Entrepreneur personality type. You may have muttered to yourself, “wow, this is so accurate it’s a little creepy” or “finally, someone understands me!” You may have even asked “how do they know more about me than the people I’m closest to?”
This is not a trick. You felt understood because you were. We’ve studied how Entrepreneurs think and what they need to reach their full potential. And no, we did not spy on you – many of the challenges you’ve faced and will face in the future have been overcome by other Entrepreneurs. You simply need to learn how they succeeded.
But in order to do that, you need to have a plan, a personal roadmap. The best car in the world will not take you to the right place if you do not know where you want to go. We have told you how Entrepreneurs tend to behave in certain circumstances and what their key strengths and weaknesses are. Now we need to go much deeper into your personality type and answer “why?”, “how?” and “what if?”
This knowledge is only the beginning of a lifelong journey. Are you ready to learn why Entrepreneurs act in the way they do? What motivates and inspires you? What you are afraid of and what you secretly dream about? How you can unlock your true, exceptional potential?
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Thursday, 8 December 2016

Ood Girl Out

This story is really amazing!
A lot of lessons I could take it into my life.
Sometimes, the person that we think ANYTHING to us, they're killer in silence.
Sometimes, the person that we think NOTHING in our life, they're the worth people in the world.
Incase whatever happened in our life, think positively! Try to be a positive person although its very very hard to do. 
Quality is better than quantity. But,its important too to be friends with all people and don't create anemies,
because the anemies will fall down by its own. Definetely!
One day, we'll found the REAL BEST FRIEND in our life.
Not the FAKE one!

Ikhlaslah. Ikhlas itu melegakan! :)

Hati Kita Allah Yang Pegang. Maka Ikhlaskan Hati...

Apa perasaan kita, Jika bunga atau buah yang kita tanam, yang kita jaga, yang kita sayang, yang kita rawat, tiba-tiba besoknya ketika sudah masak, ketika sudah mekar, ada orang yang memetiknya, ada hewan yang mengambilnya.

Apa yang kamu rasakan?
Kita marah, kita kecewa, kita sedih.Susah payah aku menjaganya, kenapa orang lain yang menikmatinya?

Sama halnya dengan perasaan.Ketika ada seseorang yang kita suka, saat dia sedih, kita jadi tempat dia berbagi kesedihan. kita memberi semangat untuk dia, kita pun menjaga perasaannya.

Disaat dia kembali bersemangat, kembali ceria, kembali tenang, tiba-tiba suatu hari, dia jatuh cinta pada orang lain.Kecewa? Pastinya.
Kecewa, marah. sedih. kenapa aku yang susah payah menjaga perasaan dia, orang lain yang medapatkan cintanya?
Tarik nafas. sebut nama Allah sejenak. pejamkan mata.Di sini kita melupakan sesuatu.

Bunga dan buah yang kita tanam itu, tanahnya milik siapa?Orang yang kita sayang dan jaga perasaannya itu, hatinya siapa yang pegang?

Tak ada yang lain kecuali Allah, pemilik segala apa yang ada dilangit dan dibumi.Jadi ikhlas lah dalam berbuat kebaikan. mungkin Allah ingin mengajarkan sesuatu pada kita.

Allah ingin kita tahu tidak semua yang kita harapkan menjadi kenyataan. Allah ingin kita tahu tanpa keihklasan segala perbuatan akan mendatangkan lelah semata.Allah ingin kita tahu yang indah di dunia itu sementara.

Allah ingin kita tahu takdir tetap milik DIA walau impian itu milik kita.
Maka berlapang dadalah. sesuatu yang akan jadi milik kita, walau sesulit apapun kita mendapatkannya, kalau Allah berkehendak jadi milik kita, pasti akan jadi milik kita akhirnya.

Tapi jika sesuatu itu bukan untuk kita, walaupun datangnya sesenang apapun, kalau Allah tiak berkehendak jadi milik kita, maka tak akan pernah menjadi milik kita.

Ikhlaslah. Ikhlas itu melegakan! :)

“Allah memberi apa yang kita perlukan, bukan apa yang kita inginkan”

Sunday, 4 December 2016

Kesabaranku Tercabar

Jika seorang itu tak banyak cakap tetapi laju bila bercakap, dia sebenarya berahsia .
Jika seorang itu makan dengan gelojoh, dia sebenarnya tertekan .
Jika seorang itu menangis kerana perkara kecil, dia sebenarnya lemah lembut .
Jika seorang itu cepat marah walaupun tentang pekara2 kecil,dia sebenarnya perlukan kasih sayang .

Bismillah..
Assalamualaikum...

Malam ni Kak Jah dah nak bertolak ke Kuala Lumpur, Damansara coz teman my beloved sister to have an interview. So,malam ni tak boleh nak ber'blog'. So,awal-awal lagi Kak Jah nak share kisah sedih pasal Kak Jah. Dah lama pendam, sampai satu saat Kak Jah tak leh tahan, Kak Jah bagitahu kat dia yang terlibat. Sungguh, sedih sangat kisah hidup Kak Jah dalam bab persahabatan ni. Allahu.. Hanya Allah yang tahu. Selain Kak Jah bagitahu dia yang terlibat tu, Kak Jah luah kat seorang kawan baik Kak Jah sorang ni. Rasa lega sikit lepas dapat luah & feedback.

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Kisah ini terjadi di IPT.

Mula-mula A dan B ni tak rapat pun coz bilik pun lain-lain. Suatu malam tu, A ni ber'whatsapp' dengan B sebab nak topup je pun. Tapi B ni saje lah nak main-main macam nak tackle gitu. B ada lah tanya aku, nak tanya & buat ayat gane, Aku ada lah tolong jugak. Main-main kan... Then, lepas tu main-main ni berlanjutan sampai ke hari ini.. B panggil si A ni dengan panggilan 'Tackle'. Lama-lama, melekat sampai sekarang. Dan tak diakui, diorang sangat-sangat rapat. Kitaorang rapat jugak lah 3 orang walaupun ada ramai lagi kawan-kawan yang lain. But, bila bertiga, aku mesti tersisih. But, idk lah orang lain perasan atau tak. Mula-mula aku rasa biasa-biasa je coz aku pernah rasa dipinggirkan bila berkawan 3 orang ni masa form 5 dulu. But,masa form 5 tu aku tak bagitahu pun yang aku terasa dll dan sampai sekarang 2 orang kawan rapat aku tu tak tahu yang aku sangat-sangat terasa terhadap pinggiran yang diorang lakukan. *Kes yang form 5 tu tak de lah teruk sangat, coz diorang jaga jugak perasaan aku ni berbanding kes di IPT ni*

B ni bawak kereta pi kolej, n memang hak dia lah nak bagi sape-sape naik kereta dia kan. Yang aku sangat tak boleh tahan, suatu hari tu aku nak duduk lah kejap kat depan. n aku tahu sangat-sangat yang dia nak bagi A duk kat depan. Tapi, dia cakap, 'A lah duk kat depan'. Aku yang pendam rasa sedih n jealous sebab dia sangat lebihkan A tanpa fikir perasaan aku ni kan, terus je tinggikan suara kat dia, berkata 'tahulah A yang duduk kat depan! Orang nak duduk kejap je pun, nanti orang turun lah. Dah ambik lah heh A duduk kat depan dengan tackle dia. Olohhhh!" *Tapi ada nada macam gurau sikit lah. Jaga lah juga hati n perasaan B tu kan. Yang tak boleh blah, dia gelak aje kat aku. U know what? Air mata ni dah mencurah-curah, but aku tak tunjuk sangat lah yang kak ni nak nangis. Tapi,air mata ni memang tak boleh disengkang lagi. Keluar jugak n aku buat-buat gelak. Sejak hari tu, aku tak pernah duduk kat depan bila naik lebih daripada 2 orang. Just duduk depan bila naik berdua dengan dia je. Ye lah, adab naik kereta orang kan, tak kan lah nak jadikan dia tu macam 'driver' pulak. Hati dan perasaan aku masih boleh berkompromi lah kalau naik berdua.



Ada suatu hari tu, seorang daripada roommate aku balik. So, tinggal 3 orang je lah. Biasalah, hari minggu mestilah pergi keluar jalan-jalan. B comfirm ajak A tu sebab B ni tak boleh kalau tak ada A. Aku pun tak tahu kenapa. But biarlah walaupun aku yang akan merana nanti. Aku dengan C jalan berdua sebab aku dah tahu apabila A n B ni berkepit, memang tak boleh lepas. So, i fikir jalan lain yang boleh menyejukkan hati. Nasib baik C tak balik, kalau C balik mesti korang boleh imagine how am i, right? Ditinggalkan, dipinggirkan bagai patung cendana yang memang takde perasaan. Aku dan C terjumpa orang jual cincin, kami beli lah. RM10 satu, huhuhu student kan, mana lah ada banyak duit nak beli yang mahal-mahal kan. Bila A n B tahu kami beli cincin, diorang pun nak beli jugak. Ok lah,pergilah beli. Yang aku sedih n agak terasa, B belanja A cincin, B ni siap cerita kat aku yang dia sarungkan cincin tu ke jari manis A. *Bagi aku, kalau nak belanja aku tak kisah. But, please jangan hebohkan yang kita ni belanja sesorang sebab kita tak tahu perasaan kawan-kawan kita yang lain. Ye lah, berkawan bukan seorang, ramai-ramai. Kalau nak bagitahu sangat belanja seseorang, means itu tidak adil kepada kawan-kawan yang lain.* Sekali lagi, pada hari yang lain, B belanja A ni tengok cinema 7D dan beli hadiah bithday A sedangkan birthday A tu dah lama lepas. Aku ada dengan B masa dia beli hadiah bufday kat si A. Apa perasaan korang kalau orang buat macam tu kat korang? Aku tak kisah kalau hari tu or beberapa hari sebelum tu merupakan bufday si A, tapi ni dah lama sangat-sangat kot. Bufday A bulan 5 (kalau tak silap) n bufday aku bulan 6. Apa bezanya?? Dua-dua dah lepas, plus bufday aku baru lagi daripada si A. Bagi aku ini tidak adil & please lah jaga jugak perasaan aku yang alone ni. Kalau nak beli kat A SAHAJA, please sorokkan daripada aku or walaupun bukan aku, jangan buat jugak kat kawan-kawan yang lain. Please sangat! Masa yang cinema 7D, A dah pilih tempat yang dia nak pergi n its my time to choose what i want to..so, i choose cinema 7D. RM8 per person. Tiba-tiba A ni tak nak masuk sebab katanya takde duit. Lama berfikir & discuss, B kata biar dia yang belanja A. Apa korang rasa?? Again, dia buat perkara yang sama. bagitahu yang dia nak belanja. If front of my face!! Terus takde mood tau! Pape pown, aku tarik balik mood bahawasanya rugilah aku bayar RM8 kalau masuk dalam sambil takde mood. So, aku fikir, tu dah rezeki dia. Rezeki dia murah. Redha je lah. Masuk je kat dalam, again!! Seat tu ada 3, aku sengaja duduk yang tengah sebab aku dah tahu what will happened, dah la masa tu aku still sakit hati. wei, kalau nak belanja pun, diam-diam sudahlah! B suruh aku alih posisi, biar A duk kat tengah, aku pun mengalah je lah. 'Siapalah diri ni kalau nak dibandingkan dengan si A yang telah bertakhta di hati B, i'm nothing. Just robot yang selalu mengada-ngada ikut diorang pi jalan-jalan.

Banyak sangat yang dilakukan mengguris hati aku ni.

-Kat kedai makan
-Bab taking photo
-Bab alone
-Main whatsapp sambil memandu



Yang paling last aku nak cerita stakat ni, masa B sakit. B ni still puji-puji A walaupun A ni tak datang jenguk pun B yang sakit, datang-datang pun just nak tanya 'Ibu dah otw ke? Pukul berapa nak balik?'. Bukan nya aku nak mengungkit or tak ikhlas or apa-apa lah, tapi butanya B tu! Sekarang aku faham kenapa cinta itu buta, orang lain buat apa-apa sekalipun tak nampak dah apabila dah ada ratu yang bertakhta di hati. Cuma, please lah buka sikit mata kau untuk orang lain. Sedikit pun jadilah. Jaga lah perasaan orang lain. Maaf terkasar sebab dah lama sangat aku pendam perkara ni sorang-sorang.

Sejak belajar di sana, aku sentiasa nangis sorang-sorang, perkara remeh pun aku nangis.
Sebenarnya itulah effect daripada apa yang aku telah lalui. Orang fikir, Manjanya kau! Tapi diorang tak tahu apa yang aku rasa. Betapa besarnya kesan yang perlu aku tempuhi dek perkara ni. Memang aku selalu ambik port dalam sesuatu perkara walaupun orang tak tahu aku ambik port tentang perkara tersebut. See, sampai sekarang aku masih ingat apa yang terjadi. Masih segar dalam ingatan aku ni.

B ada jugak terasa dengan A, tapi dia tak endahkan pun apa yang pernah A tu buat kat dia sehinggakan B pernah kata kat aku, "Hati ni jatuh berkecai dah, rela n sanggup kutip balik niyh".
But, apabila aku je buat dia terasa , terus ambik port! No compromi, terus nampak kat riak wajahnya yang dia sedang marah aku. Ini sangat lah tidak adil bagi aku. Aku rasa, aku ni apa eh? Kawan waktu susah ke kot, masa senang boleh tinggalkan begitu je.

A pun sama aje, bila dengan B, memang tak pandang & takde rasa simpati dah kepada yang tersisih, just tahu nak ambik perhatian je. Ye, aku tahu, memang semua orang suka kau. Tapi tolong lihat sekeliling bahawa ada yang tersisih dan tariklah dirinya bersama.

Apakah nasib aku? Entahlah nak cakap apa lagi, tak tahu nak describe how i felt.
Biarlah Allah sahaja tahu apa yang aku rasa. Semoga aku dikurniakan insan yang sanggup mengutip aku seperti permata. Allahumma Amiin...

Saturday, 3 December 2016

Tazkirah Pendek

Bismillahirrahmanirahim..



Solat kalau semakin kita tunda ia membuatkan kita semakin malas mengerjakannya. Semakin disegerakan ia membuatkan kita semakin bersemangat mengerjakannya.

Begitu juga dengan amal kebaikan. Semakin ditunda dalam mengerjakannya, maka syaitan akan mula mula mencelah dan mempengaruhi hati kita lalu membisikkan kemalasan hingga akhirnya melalaikan kita.

Kalau hati berniat untuk melakukan kebaikan. Jangan tunggu lama-lama. Terus lakukan agar syaitan tak dapat mencelah!


CnP:  Zon Kuliah

Dizzy III

Assalamualaikum..
Sorry lah lately Yura jarang update blog ye..
Busy kowt.. Huhuhu

Sambungan daripada 'Dizzy II'.

Yura kena pergi Pebajat MARA daerah Kemaman..
Coz my mom works there. Absolutely, its very far far away from my house and it took about 3 hours to reach the destination. Demi MARA, daku sanggup pergi..

Bila interview tu, just like I said before.. I'll choose 'DPAKK' as my future studies.
Namun, Allah telah menghantar Yura ke sana untuk memilih course lain. Sangat-sangat berbeza daripada apa yang pernah Yura fikir & tak pernah dengar pun course tersebut.
*Tipu lah tak pernah dengar, just first time jumpa course tu masa isi borang online UPU.*

Yura memilih course tu sebab En.Azman punya penerangan.. Allahu Rabbi je tahu.. Cair meleleh hati Yura ni.. Walaupun masa pilih tu ter'agak-agak' lagi. Terus booking tempat Yura kat sana,RM100.
Mana tak nya, course yang Yura akan ambil tu peluang pekerjaannya sangat luas & diperlukan oleh negara Malaysiaku yang tercinta. Plus, zaman sekarang nak dapat kerja punyalah susah. InshaAllah, Yura buat keputusan yang terbaik. Amiin...

DIPLOMA PENGURUSAN INDUSTRI HALAL menjadi pilihan.

Yang Yura paling attracted to choose this course was,

"Nanti Jah boleh kerja dalam macam-macam profesyen. InshaAllah Jah pun boleh peluang kerjaya ke luar negara spt Jepun, Korea, China dll. Mahal woo gaji kat sana, kerja dalam 1 tahun or 2 tahun kat sana dah ok sangat! Boleh jadi translator ke, promote produk halal kepada orang kat sana bawah syarikat or agensi mana-mana".

Harap sangat impian Yura nak ke kerja ke luar negara tercapai walaupun tak dapat belajar di luar negara. Allahumma Amiin.. Amiin Ya Rabb..

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23 Mac 2016

Bermulalah langkah pertamaku ke alam IPT...
Teruja sangat-sangat nak masuk ke sana. Sudah terbayang-bayang dalam fikiran bahawa bangunan yang tinggi-tinggi serta bertingket-tingket , bilik yang berbeza daripada asrama yang penuh hiruk pikuk riuh-rendah yang padat serta mampat.

Bila sampai.. Ya Allah... Hanya Allah & my parents je yang tahu how i was look like..



Indah khabar dari rupa. Itu je lah yang I boleh cakap. Maaf, bukan nak burukkan atau perlekehkan. Tetapi itulah kenyataan yang harus Yura terima. Setiap tempat ada KELEBIHAN dan KEKURANGAN masing-masing.

Nak tak nak, I have to accept it.. Sampai pun dah.. Makan pun dah... Daftar je lah..

Then,bermulalah kehidupan Yura di alam IPT.
Jauh daripada mama & abah.
Tinggal di negeri orang.
Budaya, adat dan loghat yang berbeza.

Ya Allah, tabahkan hatiku.. Ikhlaskanlah niat datang kemari.

#road_to_dean_list
#road_to_Jannah



Belajarlah Menerima

Assalamualaikum..
Malam ni Maya nak cerita sikit ye.. Baca tau! 

Bismillah..  :D



Ada sebuah pohon yg sedang berbuah lebat, buahnya terlihat kuning keemasan dan sangat menggiurkan.

Seekor burung jalak terbang ke pohon tersebut, dengan suara tinggi berteriak memuji pohon tersebut.
"Pohon yang subur, engkau terlihat indah dengan buah-buahmu ini."

Pohon yang mendengar pujian tersebut berkata kepada burung jalak, "Teman, tinggallah di atas saya!."

Kemudian, seekor burung kenari terbang dan hinggap di atas dahan pohon tersebut, sambil bernyanyi, "Pohon ini sangat hijau, buahnya sangat harum dan kelihatan enak."

Pohon berkata kepada burung kenari ini, "Jika engkau ingin memakan buah in, ambil saja!"

Tiba-tiba seekor burung belatuk terbang ke pohon tersebut. Ia mematuk-matuk di sana-sini di badan pohon itu, patukannya membuatkan pohon sangat sakit, sambil menjerit kesakitan berteriak kepada burung belatuk.

Burung belatuk berkata, "Aku melihat di dalam tubuh kamu ada seekor ulat, saya ingin mematuknya keluar, jika tidak kamu akan sakit dimakan ulat..."

Si pohon dengan marah berkata, "Jangan bercakap kosong, engkau mematuk aku kerana sengaja ingin membunuh aku, cepat pergi dari sini!"

Burung belatuk akhirnya terbang pergi.

Tidak berapa lama kemudian, pohon itu menderita sakit, daunnya berubah kuning kemudian gugur. Dahannya juga layu, tidak berbuah lagi.

Burung jalak terbang meninggalkannya, burung kenari juga tidak datang bernyanyi lagi..

Pada saat itu burung belatuk datang lagi, walau bagaimanapun pohon menjerit kesakitan, ia tidak peduli, burung belatuk terus mematuk hingga seluruh ulat di pohon terpatuk habis.

Beberapa hari kemudian, pohon itu tumbuh kembali, daun-daun hijau mula kelihatan, kemudian ia berbuah lagi.

Pohon itu dengan perasaan terharu berkata, "Yang bernyanyi dan memuji kita belum tentu teman baik, tetapi yang bersedia menunjukkan kekurangan kita dan membantu kita, itulah teman sejati."

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Subhanallah.. Cerita yang sangat memberi pengajaran kepada kita semua..

Kalau cerita bab sahabat, kawan baik or kawan-kawan lah apa-apa pun..Mesti takde mood..
Sebab di mana pun Maya pergi, Maya tak ada kawan yang tetap baik and rapat. Kadang-kadang.. selalu jealous tengok orang ada ramai kawan, orang ada kawan rapat.. Selalu.. Kalau yang diceritakan, banyak sangat sangat sangat cerita sedih Maya tentang kawan niyh.. Bila teringat, boleh nangis tau! Dalam banyak banyak sebab yang membuatkan Maya menangis adalah sebab kawan. 



Semoga Allah mempertemukan sahabat dan kawan-kawan yang baik kepada Maya di dunia dan di akhirat.. Allahumma Amiin.. Amiin Ya Rabbal Alamin...

Friday, 2 December 2016

Dizzy II

Assalamualaikum...
Good night uolls..

Malam ni Yura penat sangat coz ada rewang kat rumah my mom's cousin.
Anak dye, dua pupu Yura lah.. Biasalah tolong-tolong kan. Ni pergi petang & malam coz mama yang paksa. Huhuhu... If my mom nagging, anyone couldn't stop her. Nagging...Nagging..Nagging.. But, I still love her.. I know that, all of thing that she had done were for her childrens' sake & future.

Thanks,mama.. I LOVE U SOOOOO MUCCCCHHH...!!

P/S: Tengok orang kahwin,rasa nak kahwin jugak la.. Ammmbooiii, gatal eh! Hahaha.. Saje je.. Sape lah x nak kahwin kan?? Sweet sangat cara diorang jumpa tu.. Tahniah ye! InshaAllah kekal bahagia hingga ke Syurga-Nya. Sama-sama warak, yang perempuan pakai niqab,ayu je. Yang lelaki, handsome sgt! Allahu... Dah lah imam masjid kat Klang.. Subhanallah..

Doakan Yura dapat jodoh yang soleh & dapat bimbing Yura ke Jannah.. Amiin.. Allahumma Amiin.



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Ok lah.. Yura nak sambung pasal IPT tu ye..

Awal bulan 5, my lovely mom got a message from MARA about the instituition and i needed to have the interview.. Tapi, x tahu lagi untuk universiti or kolej mana-mana. Masa tu, Yura semangat sangat nak pergi coz like all these people know that scholarship MARA are really really hard. In my mind, although my result doesn't like what i want, i wanna to study hard in ipt & i don't have to burden my parents to pay all of my studies' fee.

Masa tu, Yura still confuse to choose the course that i should take in my future studies. Just like I said before, my ambition was crashed because of my SPM's result. Very frustated! Arrrggghhhh!!

DIPLOMA PENDIDIKAN AWAL KANAK-KANAK
DIPLOMA PENGAJIAN PERNIAGAAN
DIPLOMA PSIKOLOGI
KOLEJ MATRIKULASI PAHANG
POLITEKNIK PREMIER UNGKU OMAR

Seriously, sangat blur about my future! Tak tahu apa yang Yura minat.



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Yura was made the biggest desicion about my future studies..
'Pendidikan Awal Kanak-Kanak' yang menjadi pilihan hati. In my mind,one day,  i wanna to teach and open a nursery or a kindergarten. I felt so sorry for those babies and innocent children that had been abuse.

Bila dah pergi interview....
apa yang terjadi?????????????
Adakah Yura still dgn keputusan yang telah dibuat?
Or sebaliknya??

Tunggu post seterusnya ye untuk mengetahui..

Sorry sangat.. Yura dah ngantuk,..
1.20 a.m. memang dah waktu tido..Esok nak bangun solat Subuh..

Nite! Fi hifzillah..